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[Jan. 12th, 2006|09:26 pm] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
So, there’s nothing like writing in this. I wonder how many people will actually care and read it? Probably not many, if that at all. I've been fixated on school, learning and reading. Not to mention the hours of homework and working. I haven't been to a decent show for a long time and I'm okay with that, I'm sure if I went to one, I'd just feel alone and insecure as always and end up leaving. SO...... sick again. Is this not the most annoying thing I've ever encountered in my life? I think it is. Getting sick is like clockwork for me. Went to the doctors yet again for a sinus infection, and when she came in the room she was dumbfounded about how many times I've been in the office for a sinus infection. she told me she must order a cat scan to look for further sinus cavity problems!!!!!!! hopefully there is no problem. with my luck though there will be.
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titillandus |
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| for what its worth |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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| |  wasted | ] |
There are times i just dont understand myself, not to mention the other lives in my life. I dont really think anyone really understands me, or wants to.I think they just put up with me and then they throw me away. Even if its not true, its a feeling that has always lingered and it never seems to fade away when i'm told how important i am in someone elses life. Im sure that i should get help, what good is it? all they will do is put me on medication, pop some more pills to feel happy. what a waste of time. oh well see what tomorrow will bring. |
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| ummm |
[Sep. 12th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
oh i dont know why i want to write in this but i do.... i honestly have had the best year since i've been home. nothings been going wrong. i got a new job that is probably the best thing that i landed. im going to school. meeting new people, new friend, going to a lot of concert. and fucking partying. and im going to tennessee this novermber to see family and to get my car back cause i miss it so. plus all the shit i left from fl is finally going to be here. i dont know how i'll do with that. but fuck it it happen its over and i have better things now that i've gone. |
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| weekend |
[Jul. 17th, 2005|06:59 pm] |
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| |  mischievous | ] |
friday- i cant remember..... oh yeah i dont remember.
saturday- Hung out with kevin, got some breakfast/lunch/brunch thing, then molly,kevin, and i saw shianne, katie, and caroline at the movies, they were going to the same movie. so we sat with them and watched charlie and the chocolate factory. good stuff johnny deep was so funny. it was so much better then the original. boo ya
sundays- fucking suck! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 11th, 2005|10:03 am] |
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| You Are a Frappacino | 
At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern
At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent
You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet
Your caffeine addiction level: low |
| Your Career Type: Artistic | 
You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
weekend was good, hung out with allie and betsy on friday, went to the barnicle on saturday and then went to the mall with my niece shianne and my nephew ryan and kevin. to get kevin some tapers and gauges. so we did that then those kids went right to the food court it was like 8:00pm Shianne got french fries and ice cream, Ryan got a pretzel and an Ice cream,and Kevin ate a burger, some of shi's fries, half of my sandwich, my icecream, shianne's icecream. it was nuts... and now im making plans to do something with shianne today. i dont know what i am going to do |
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| for what its worth.... |
[Jul. 8th, 2005|10:03 am] |
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| |  loved | ] |
nothing... but i do know that i've had a great couple of days! and i still have more great days to come! |
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| yesterday |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|10:58 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
yesterday was okay... i had fun at the beach, ate food, barbecue, and awesome fireworks this year. i like them a lot better then the cos-way. a lot of family issues came out at the barbecue i was very confused. it was horrible. but whatever.
today shianne is hanging out with me and we're wicked tired. might go to the beach? maybe salem willows, not sure yet. right now its 11 and all i wanna do is sleep, i feel bad but i did a lot yesterday. and now im really sore. so i feel bad for shi. oh well |
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| ya |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|02:42 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
My step sister shannon, her bf Joe, and her daughter shianne.... my niece are up for the summer. with there dog max who is huge! should be fun |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2005|08:43 am] |
OH how love getting jeep wranglers stuck on a steep incline of dirt and having the ass end get stuck up on the asphalt.
Yes this is the campaign
Slithered entrails
In the cargo bay
A neutered is the vastness
Hallow vacuum check the
Oxygen tanks
They hibernate
But have they kissed the ground
Pucker up and kiss the asphalt now
Tease this amputation
Splintered larynx
It has access now
Cut away, cut away
Send transmission from
The one armed scissor
Cut away, cut away
Banked on memory
Mummified circuitry
Skin graft machinery
Sputnik sicklese found in the seats
Self-destruct sequence
This station is non-operational
Species growing
Bubbles in an IV loitering
Unknown origin
Is this the comfort of being afraid
Solar eclipsed
Black out the vultures
As they wait
Unknown, unknown
Unknown, unknown, yeah
Cut away, cut away
Send transmission from
The one armed scissor
Cut away, cut away
Dissect a trillion sighs away
Will you get this letter
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Will you get this letter
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember
Cut away, cut away
Send transmission from
The one armed scissor
cut away, cut away
cut away, cut away |
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| quizzes |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|09:40 am] |
Your #1 Love Type: INFP | The Idealist
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ |
Your #2 Love Type: ENFP | The Inspirer
In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond.
For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate.
Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner.
However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad.
Best matches: INTJ and INFJ |
Your #3 Love Type: ISFP | The Artist
In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions.
For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings.
Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener.
However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes.
Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ |
Part Romantic Kisser |
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet | Part Expert Kisser |
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable |
| You Are Strawberry Ice Cream |  A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream. |
| JAIME |
| J |
is for |
Joyous |
| A |
is for |
Arty |
| I |
is for |
Insane |
| M |
is for |
Musical |
| E |
is for |
Enlightened |
INSANE? haha
American Cities That Best Fit You:
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60% Boston |
60% Chicago |
55% New York City |
55% Philadelphia |
50% Los Angeles |
You Are a Husky Puppy |
Sweet, affectionate, and docile.
But when you see a cat or chicken, it's kill kill kill!!!
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| i dont know |
[Jun. 27th, 2005|08:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | converge | ] |
this is probably going to be the longest week of my life.... i cant go out, i cant even really walk right, i cant work, i cant move to get myself comfy in my bed. i dont know what i am going to do with myself. except sleep which is something i dont normally get a lot of. but have gotten so much that i've been getting up extremly early like now.
i want to go out, i want to go to the beach, or the willows and play videos games and eat cheap chinese food with some of my friends. but no i cant i have big cut going from the middle of my lower stomach to the left hip about a 6 inch insision. like thats gunna stop me from having fun pffftttt! down on hands and knees choking and gasping dripping spit im so fucking bored!
so i'll write....
my unconscious exclusions , and my desires tear into me like a knife
wanted nothing more than to feel all those feelings rolling threw my bones
your name goes over and over
in my head your smile replays
i am measuring doses and making equal parts for my love life
we will start over be safe and sound..... just over.
your name lights up life. just watch it fold
(my will to tell you how i feel, the shame i have against myself)
like sheets of jealousy I'm use to it
making my way home just look out for me
devotion keep it coming
my unconscious exclusions , and my desires tear into me like a knife
wanted nothing more than to feel all those feelings rolling threw my bones
your name goes over and over
in my head your smile replays
please don't ever end
(my will to tell you how i feel, the shame i have against myself) |
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| after a good time |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|10:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | straylight run - the perfect ending | ] |
so i changed my livejournal name cause i hated the other one. see i'll start writing in it again.
its been like three days after my surgery. and i got a phone call from allie and betsy asking if i wanted to go out for a 20min car ride which ended up a 2 hour excursion getting (blood red)icecream and (flying) pork fried rice at the willows, it was good times.i felt extremly high on my medication and making allie, betsy, sarah, and myself laugh extremly hard. i am blaming the ice cream. its where it all started.
im not suppost get out of bed for a week (ssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh!)which is rediclous but understandable now that im in some pain this morning. oh well....
so the other ali asked me to jam with her and alex when i am better. i think im gunna cause i miss playing in a band and i miss ali that young kid geez.and i have a lot of music that i have written since i was gone in fl and now that im bed ridden. i need to get it out of system. and it will help me out getting into doing shows again with kevin. trying to get things together to do a label. promoting shows, getting bands, recording, getting a pa system with the little or no money that we have but this project will be fun i think. we gunna do a show at the end of july so if u want a band to play or u want ur band to play hit me up and we'll talk about it.` |
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